the begin of my internship diary (maybe)

well, the reason for the dairy is because i guess i might feel emo everyday for not being able to do things i want in internship, eg:
- play violin anytime i want
- watch anime and laugh without control
- download large size stuff (game/anime/software)
- online 24/7

orz.....

not just that,
simply because working is not something easy, or at least, for sure, it will incur stress one way or another, therefore i can't stress relieve with my usual stuff due to the restriction, and so i come to writing stuff like this.

ok, after stating the reasons, here's the emotion for today.

supreme uneasy.

well, as mentioned at the above, all my usual stuff cannot do without following strict rules, therefore i don't, and can't feel free and easy.
can't get along with colleague.... well kinda expected for my attitude and the difference of interest with commoners.
waiting for the real intern work to start, is like waiting to get torture, can't feel easy of course.
forever alone, in this case quite bothering as the colleague who shares hostel with me, is a couple (OTL orz orz orz) and they both shares a room as well, imagine the rest.
the last and also the main factor, My Desktop Is Not Here Yet! the person that helps me deliver my heavy luggage delay 1 day for his trip, and what's worse is the other one who can help me bring my stuff from the deliverman to my hostel can't help me on the day the luggage arrive, means i will have to spend 2 days without my desktop.

sob.... i'm concluding here.
all these stuffs happened because of my decision for challenging myself in an unfamiliar environment. one side of me wanna regret, while the other side trying hard not to, therefore it kinda torturing (self-torturing btw).
so haizz..... someone cure my problem.

p.s. i realize this room will be freaking hot when i use my desktop in the future. OTL orz orz orz orz orz orz