its bittersweet, after dreaming of her all of the sudden.
bitter, because everything is still the same, i'm far apart from her.
sweet, cause i didn't see her in a long time, even though it's just in the dream.
soon after, it's more sour, as i'm fully awake from dream, and face the reality cruelly.
overall feeling is still hard to put into words, but one thing for sure.
it's not nice at all.
for an instance i thought my worst feeling in the past has come back.
maybe it does, for a very short moment.
if that dark and sad feeling is to come back again,
i may be able to cry after a long time,
the cry with real tears.
this is a note for myself if i ever get emo on these kind of things again.
if she's unreachable.
forget it, and start doing what you must do now (school/work/fun/anime).
if she's reachable,
gather your courage and make sure you won't regret.
it's no longer secondary, my age start with the digit '2' already.
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